vc-I am very sorry to hear that.
Many of us that have found our way to this forum have an understanding of the bond that exists between man and animal. It is like nothing else in the world.
The bond is the purest, strongest, and perhaps ONLY real demonstration of "unconditional love". No matter how nasty our mood may be, they are always happy to see us. No matter that we forgot about them and left them in the pickup for 3 hours, they are happy to see us. No matter that we ignore them for a solid week during tax season, they are always happy to see us.
The relationship always reminds me of a time in my life when my kids were young...and all they wanted to do was be by my side. It didn't matter if I was doing the most horrible task that there was, they just wanted to be there for it.
vc, I will be thinking of you and I wish you and your family the best. All of the happy memories that dog got to be a part of...that is why you rescued her. That is why your lives intersected when she was only 6 months old. And when the worst of the hurt is gone, you will think back and ask yourself......who really rescued who?
Take care.
Tc1